Motherhood

A Letter to My Boys

2:50:00 AM

As I approach 38 weeks and am super emotional + hormonal, I am looking at my life right now and am completely overwhelmed. Trying to fit in all of my clients prior to baby no. 3's due date and trying to be a good wife + mother is taking every ounce of strength I have. But here is the truth, even though I am almost completely tapped out by the end of each day, I am so grateful for this life that I have and would not trade it for anything in the world. So, as I sit here at 2AM, not able to sleep, feeling a little nostalgic, I wanted to write a letter to my boys who are about to have their world rocked by a baby sister...


A letter to my sons,
Thank you for being you. I know I don't tell you enough, but I am so blessed to be your mommy and it is the greatest job I have ever had and will ever have. Thank you for bringing noise + chaos + laughter + joy to my life in ways that I never dreamed I would love as much as I do. I know there will come a day when the house is quiet + still and I will be longing for these days again. For the days when you chase each other down the hall and around the dining room table with super hero capes on and dump thousands of Legos all over the living room floor. For mornings filled with snuggles and evenings of dance parties.

My greatest joy in life is watching you grow + learn + explore this vast world around you. I pray that you will love God and love each other. Put each other first! Being a brother is sacred and I pray you always love each other and take care of one another. Be friends. Support each other and be proud of one another when one of you may do something better than the other. Live in the moment. Don't worry about what other people think and don't worry about the future, today has enough worries of it's own. Be respectful and kind. To one another and to others. Show Christ and His light in a world that seems to be overrun by darkness. It will be your greatest weapon in times of struggle and sorrow.

I love you. I have loved each of you from the moment I knew you were growing in my tummy. From that first moment I held you in my arms and looked into your eyes, I knew my life would never be the same. You have made my heart and soul's capacity for love grow far beyond words can express. I have never been more proud of anything in my life than being a tiny part of creating you. You gave my life new meaning and a new purpose. I pray that you will always love coming to me with your problems and sharing your days with me. That you will always feel safe and loved and free to be who God made you to be when we are together. Know that I love every. single. thing. about you and that will never change.

Thank you for truly being my greatest adventure in this life.

I love you all the way to up to Heaven and back,
Mommy

Pregnancy

Baby No. 3 :: 36 Week Bump Update

6:36:00 AM


36 weeks! Holy moly Batman! This little one is getting so close to being out of my tummy and into my arms and I am just SO excited! The past month has been a roller coaster of emotions however, because she has been breeched for all of it. I never had any issues with positioning with either of my boys, so I have been in totally new territory this past month.

If you don't know already, I had a home birth with my second son and it was literally one of the most amazing experiences of my life (you can read about it here). So when I found out this baby was breeched, I was devastated. There would go any chance of delivering again at home. Rather, I would most likely have to have a C-section, which has been one of my worst fears since being pregnant with my first baby. I know so many women have them and everything is wonderful, and of course, the most important thing is just getting this baby out safely, but that operating room scares the poop out of me.

Well, I had an ultrasound appointment this past week to measure her growth and make sure she was healthy and looking good and to the miraculous glory of God this sweet baby was head down!!!! My heart was so happy it could have jumped right out of my chest. I have been doing all of these things to get her to flip (chiropractor twice a week, cat/cow, cleaning on my hands and knees, inverting myself off the couch...you name it, I'm sure I tried it lol) and praying so so much for the Lord to just help this baby get into a good position. If your baby is not in a good position or you just want to make sure you body is a little bit more ready for labor you have to check out the website www.spinningbabies.com It was so helpful and had great advice.

How far along? 36 weeks, 2 days
Total weight gain+29 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes and No
Stretch marks? none
Sleep: Have had a few good nights here and there, but for the most part just too uncomfortable and wake up a bunch throughout the night.
Best moment of this weekFinding out baby is head down! Greatest piece of news I could have ever received after everything we have been through this past month.
Miss Anything? Sleep + Being able to sit without a foot or knee up in my rib cage.
Movement: Yes, so much, but I can tell she is starting to run out of room in there.
Food cravings: Chocolate + Peanut Butter
Anything making you queasy or sick? Not today..
Have you started to show yet? Duh
Gender: girl
Labor Signs? none yet, but after a long day at work my stomach gets really tight. Trying to take lots of baths and just relax/sit down as much as possible to keep her in there a little longer.
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time? More emotional than anything. Everything lately has been making me super weepy. Too. Many. Hormones.
Looking forward to? Getting the nursery totally complete and then just having her here. As much as I want her to stay in there so I can take care of all of my clients, I am so so ready to meet this little girl. 



Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

Motherhood

Baby No. 3 :: 32 Week Bump Update

9:02:00 AM

And we have reached 32 weeks...which is technically 8 months!! Crazy! I feel like this pregnancy is flying by. Between my growing business + 2 other kiddos life has been busier than ever. I am trying my hardest to stop and take in this precious time because before I know it these will all be moments of the past.

The news at my most recent appointment is that baby girl is breeched at the moment, so for the next couple of weeks my goal is to do any and all exercises possible to help her turn head down. I know it is still early and for now she has plenty of room to move, but thinking about the possibility of her being breached is a little stressful as there are not many doctors who perform breeched vaginal births. In fact, the nearest doctor my midwife would recommend is almost 500 miles away in Atlanta. So my prayer is that it doesn't come to that.


How far along? 32 weeks 4 days
Total weight gain: +25 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes and No
Stretch marks? none
Sleep: Not much lately, but this is about the stage during each pregnancy when I feel like my body just starts prepping me for the newborn phase.
Best moment of this week: Hanging up shelves + some pretty things I made for the nursery. I am so in love with everything that I just can't wait for it to all come together.
Miss Anything? Sleep
Movement: Yes, so much, but I can tell she is starting to run out of room in there.
Food cravings: Coffee...lol I seriously could not survive my life without coffee at this point.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Not really, so I got that going for me.
Have you started to show yet? Definitely
Gender: girl
Labor Signs? none yet. Praying she stays in there until her due date!
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time? Happy + Moody. I am pregnant after all. It is really hard to be happy all of the time when you are tired + uncomfortable.
Looking forward to? Getting the new furniture for the nursery and adding the finishing touches. I have been working really hard to create such a pretty space for her + me. Can't wait to share when it is all complete!

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